I surrender. Where do I turn but to you? Only you can fill this empty space that is all I now know. Madness is on my only seen horizon. Take me to that place I have forgotten. Take me to the only place that heals. Take me now to you.
Grant me the grace
Of some hope, a light smile
Take from me this cross
That’s much too hard to bear
Father, please forgive me
My sins are all long past
Lead me to the light
Cleanse me in your love
My father walks with You now
Life taken by his hand
I feel so all alone
It’s hard to walk this life
Help me cry the tears
Touch me in grace
Prove to me my worth
Remove the cold chill dark
I beg You, I beseech You
Lift me from these chains
Let me hear You, know You, believe
Take the pain away
Amen
Wretched indecision
Dawning indiscretions
Wanting imprecisions
Lusting for the truth
Moments’ lost enchantments
Reaching for the knife
Clawing at the windowsill
Dreaming a dreamer’s life
Passion’s bubbling cauldron
Seeping blood’s fresh calm
Nothing else will still
This moment’s rising dawn
Pain is lasting
Memories unforgotten, relived, cherished, held
Visions of yesterday, last Tuesday, the brawl in the schoolyard
Forty years ago
Pain is forever
Thoughts cling to sensations, sensations to thoughts
Twin siblings, knowing intimately the shared songs
Of life
Pain is existence
Contrastor of goodness, of joy, of pleasure
Black waves crashing on the rocks
Each starless night
Pain is purveyor
Carrying the memories, the fears, the lessons
Her teachings, the sole way of persistence
Of thought, of perception, of life
Entering again this forest
Ancient chill filling the dawn
While just beneath the surface
Bubbling heat rages on
Child of endless wonder
Smothered by deception and pain
Sucking in warm putrid water
Misery strikes once again
Mumbling softly in the dim
Alone in the rising new smell
Welcome to the loss of your sanity
Nearing the rusted gates of hell
